country music, speed and laundry

[fen mh]

Up all night, doing laundry, being online, doing speed and smoking cigarettes. I wish I could just stop smoking. I'm listening to country music the whole time. I LOVE Willie Nelson and Johnny Cash.
On the weekend I did acid to do some soul searching, it was great. I swear that all in all LSD has made me a better person.

Now it's like around 5am. Meh. I'm always kinda annoyed by my boyfriend waking up when I'm high and up all night. Probably because I know that it bothers him when I just stay up doing drugs for no special reason. But since I also did laundry it's not like I totally wasted the time.
I'm gonna have another smoke now and then I'll go check on the washer 'cause I think it's done. Then later I gotta dye my hair. I bleached it yesterday evening because I'm sick of the black and I want to dye it brown again so my natural color can just grow out again. Dyeing hair annoys me, it's always so messy. But I guess it's the results that count.
Life's good, if you make it that.

[fen mh]

It IS filthy, you're right. The guy where I buy it has this jar and there is all this pasty fluid covered stuff in there, and he keeps it in a shut jar because the fluid stuff is all chemicals, like solvents or something like that because the wet stuff dries so quick once it gets air, and at first it smells so extreme all over and once it's dry the smell is so much less intense. There are seriouly fumes coming off the dope. But I can't keep my hands off it, at least not all the time. I quit cocaine, I just recently quit opiates (I was getting Methadone), I just love speed too much. I have too many excuses to do it again and again and so on, I need it for when I do other drugs (LSD, MDMA, 2-cb ...) to enjoy them to the maximum. And I am really good at denial and pushing away the truth... Anyways- I'll totally make a sandwich for you, if you can make sure that it finds it's way from me to you.