Eating Disorder

Yes i used to chew my food and spit it in a napkin or anywhere, just so i wouldnt actually eat it and not gain weight. although i was already 80 lbs. Then i started feeding my self just beer and got a beer belly so i said fuck it... and i forgot all about trying to be skinny. and became a junk food eater. It was all about fries and beer . BUT i now try to eat and i have a hard time. I keep myself as healthy as possible eating at least once a day, assorted meals . you know, like, carbs and protein and some sugar and veggie.. maybe cheese... i stayed at 99 lbs , but look even thinner because i walk A LOT and i like hula hoops. Although i just damaged my rib. lol

anyway, its silly. but find a new obsession. like reading or writing or playing something (no gambling)

Kind Regards!!!

I'm flying out to an eating disorder treatment center tomorrow! (So I won't be around for 3 months or so, but I'll talk to you when I get back.) I restrict my calories and work out a lot, but I wouldn't say I have an eating disorder, everyone else just does. I haven't purged continuously since high school though, can't do that anymore. My throat's fucked enough as it is.

I've had an eating disorder off and on for about 18-years now. Still struggle at times. Hope you're well.