Reflection

Last night i did something stupid, something that i cannot be proud off, something thatlet me down.... Since i finished my classes i started to getting fat, staying all the time in the sofa watching TV without walking as always when i had classes! For make things worse my sister started to criticize saying that im fat like a pig, i eat like a pig, and saying that she cannot see my neck and i was disgusting! YOU KNOW. When someone started to criticize you, you start to absorb all the things and those things start to make your life a misery. As you know im going to Portugal in 7 days and i do want to look nice ( anyway girl's things)... So the nightmare started after my sister told me those bad things and i started to look at me in every window or mirror that i saw while walking on the street. PSYCOOOO!!! The disadvantage is when im nervous i have to eat, eat and eat and to be honestwith you my life is not that great as i told you before immigration is not the easiest thing to do ... Here it comes the worst part, last night i said to myself Daisy you will loose weight! BUT HOW? IN 8 DAYS... So i think, i think and i came to the conclusion ( its not conclusion its  a stupid thing) to put a pen in my mouth and vomit... In other words working for BULIMIA! So i did these and vomit its strange but at once i felt happy but after i look to myself through the mirror and i said : WHAT ARE YOU DOING? I DON'TBELIEVE THAT YOU DID THESE!LOOK AT YOU ! YOU MAY THINK YOU SEE WHO ARE YOU IN REALITY, BUT YOU DON'T KNOW YOU ENOUGH! WHO IS THAT GIRL I SEE, STARING AND STRAIGHT BACK AT ME? WHEN MY REFLECTION SHOWS WHO I AM INSIDE! DO I WANT TO PRETEND THAT I AM SOMEONELSE? WHEN MY REFLECTION SHOWS WHO I AM INSIDE?YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE! DAISY TODAY YOU LET ME DOWN! I don't want to develop more this, i'm sad i though that i was stronger enough to avoid these.... Today was the day where I DAISY BERNINI which people think is happy is not.. Today she was a disappoint for herself... TODAY SHE WILL REFLECT AND THINKABOUT THE DAY TOMORROW, TODAY SHE WILL DIE AND TOMORROW HOPEFULLY WILL BORN A NEW ONE!!!LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR SUCH STUPPID THINGS...

Daisy Bernini xoxo