"Hey! BangsBoy's here!" Please, I'm sick and tired of that name. Seriously, why would I like him? Just look at him. He's all flesh and bones. His eyes have dark circles under them. His skin is pasty white. He looks like a walking white stick with a skull planted at the uppermost section. Yet, I turn around and squeal at the top of my longs. Yuck. I sound so fake. Why aren't they noticing that? Why couldn't they feel what I truly feel? It should have been obvious enough. I just insisted that I have on BangsBoy just so they won't tease me about Planet.Comparing Planet with BangsBoy is like comparing an angel to a mere rock. I mean, It was perfectly okay with it but then I made them stop because he was beginning to notice and when he sees me, he swerves around the other direction. It made my heart shatter completely. Them teasing me with BangsBoy is good for me too, to take my head off Planet. But it was fun at the start. I was stalikng him, and I knew every minor detail of what he did everyday. That time, I still had hope, hope that he would notice me, hope that he would like me back. I started to feel a little down when he started going out with Kate, but I was still persistent. I still had that little piece of hope in my heart. But when he avoided me, I was blown off. I didn't know what to do. The first time he did that, the little piece of hope in my heart was ripped into bits and thrown towards me, mocking me, telling me he was never going to notice me again. That was the time I stopped doing things for him. What was the point? Why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't even give a darn about me? It was too impossible since the beginning, and it's impossible now. It's too late for things to change. He would never become aware of me, no matter how hard I tried. So from then on, I turned to BangsBoy. I know it was probably the worst choice I made in my entire life, but what else could I do? Instead of feeling dejected everyday when I see him turn around, I could at least divert some of my feelings for Planet and give it to BangsBoy. Instead of wishing for something bleak to happen, why not wish you could be with BangsBoy, where there's a chance( however slim) you could be with him for the rest of your existence? Why hope for something already doomed when you could hope for something realistic, right?
rebound crush
by green apple
Jun 27, 2010
Please, I'm sick and tired of that name. Seriously, why would I like him? Just look at him. He's all flesh and bones. His eyes have dark circles under them. His skin is pasty white. He looks like a walking white stick with a skull planted at the uppermost section.
Yet, I turn around and squeal at the top of my longs. Yuck. I sound so fake. Why aren't they noticing that? Why couldn't they feel what I truly feel? It should have been obvious enough. I just insisted that I have on BangsBoy just so they won't tease me about Planet.Comparing Planet with BangsBoy is like comparing an angel to a mere rock. I mean, It was perfectly okay with it but then I made them stop because he was beginning to notice and when he sees me, he swerves around the other direction. It made my heart shatter completely. Them teasing me with BangsBoy is good for me too, to take my head off Planet. But it was fun at the start. I was stalikng him, and I knew every minor detail of what he did everyday. That time, I still had hope, hope that he would notice me, hope that he would like me back. I started to feel a little down when he started going out with Kate, but I was still persistent. I still had that little piece of hope in my heart. But when he avoided me, I was blown off. I didn't know what to do. The first time he did that, the little piece of hope in my heart was ripped into bits and thrown towards me, mocking me, telling me he was never going to notice me again. That was the time I stopped doing things for him. What was the point? Why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't even give a darn about me? It was too impossible since the beginning, and it's impossible now. It's too late for things to change. He would never become aware of me, no matter how hard I tried. So from then on, I turned to BangsBoy. I know it was probably the worst choice I made in my entire life, but what else could I do? Instead of feeling dejected everyday when I see him turn around, I could at least divert some of my feelings for Planet and give it to BangsBoy. Instead of wishing for something bleak to happen, why not wish you could be with BangsBoy, where there's a chance( however slim) you could be with him for the rest of your existence? Why hope for something already doomed when you could hope for something realistic, right?