Life's on Fire, The Apology [Song I wrote]

I know what I did was probably not right
but I can't keep it inside while my heart wants a fight
maybe I am just a child

And when I get curious I always look back
I think of all the good times we had
And you have to believe me when I say I miss the past

My face gets red and I start to twitch
I don't get the meaning of this
What am I to do when you're mad at me

So put me in the ground if it makes you smile
Cover me with dirt and think for a while
How did it come to be like this?

And who am I to say I'm done
When I know deep down it has just begun.
I hope that this will be settled soon

I'm so sorry for getting that upset
to show everyone one that I'm the immature
man that you saw a year ago

I never wanted for it to be like this
But this is life, there's gonna be some bullshit
and I'm sorry, for real this time.

But I am suffocating, I'm drowning I'm falling down
I'm a nuisence I'm stupid and I'm losing the sounds

Where do you go when you get tired?
What do you do when life says you're fired
Do I get up or just let myself fall back down?

Where will I be in 10+ years?
Who will I see?
Will you be there.

I'm sorry.

I take responsibility for my actions and words
I took it apart too much and it became obsurd
I'm sorry forever, I'm just the gum on your shoe
I'm sorry trust me, I'd do anything for you.
But life's on fire