I should publish this shit.

This is hard to articulate. I'm not shit. What is the balance between how you are feeling that day and a particular encounter you are having as it relates to the overall success and enjoyment of the occasion? For example, if you had a headache and met Jesus that day, it might not be as good as you had hoped. Conversely, if you were in a fucking brilliant mood one day and had a meeting with an accountant - you might walk out of the office thinking, "That was a fucking brilliant meeting." Tiredness can mar so many great occasions. Feeling good can elevate so much shittyness. What is the ratio between the two factors? When does something which is brilliant on paper become shit cos you're not feeling so good that day? When does something objectively dull become good cos you're feeling subjectively great? But back to the former, more worrying of the two: what if you were tired on the day that the best thing which ever happened to you occurred? You might not even realise it - even all these years later - that the best thing that has ever happened to you - or ever will - has already occurred - but you missed it cos you were a bit tired that day. How existential and lovely. Life is a minefield. Also, if you had a tail, what would you want it to look like?