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What a Sunday Current mood: bullied Category: Life Well as usual my so called friends did not go and invite me anywhere, and so I was stuck here doing absolutly nothing but organizing or cleaning (as if I do not do much of that already ) but NEWay I actually did do something extraordinary that i did not expect myself to do, and that was create a recycling center in my room. Since I had an old laundry basket that I was about to retire, i decided instead of throwing it away, i will use it to put plastics in it, and I also had an empty box, so i decided to use that for paper, and so now my room is a recycle place, since I tend to recycle stuff anyway. Well after that it was off to the newman Club for mass, and it was not so crowded today, yet it is expected to get crowded next week since it will be Palm Sunday. After that it was off to finish my assignment for tomorrow, and I did so after that I decided to go out to Wrigly Field and drink a bit since i was still a bit upset over my so called Friends decided to go out, but it was not to a party, it was to the fricking movies, and they went and watched "House on the Left" which is what I fricking wanted to fucking watch, and they did not even fucking even think about inviting me, despite them knowing that I AM A FRICKING MOVIE LOVER. heck i could have even brought them popcorn and stuff, but no they do not want an older person in their lives, and so I guess i will just stay out of the fucking way. One has often wondered "Why does this person hang out with a bunch of 'dilinquents'" and the answer is plane and simple: To keep me out of those friken bars. that way i do not drunken myself every friken day ( as I have done so now, and am typing this--so sorry if it is all misspelled and stuff) but hey what does a fricken over 30 yo male belong in college foe anyway while the rest is about 18-21. Well, even though many of the college students tend to just "use me for my services" I will still continue, I do know of some few that still just want me for me, and so I guess i shal live up to their standards of "being me". I was going to invite people over to "bananas Fun park" but that did not even come close to happening, but O well I guess i got my moments of fun by "going out" which i totaly despised myself of doing since now I am paying for it. Saturday, March 28, 2009 Sleepful Saturday Current mood: bored Category: Games Well my saturday was not much accomplishable, since the day I actically slept till the afternoon. but after getting up, i guess going to the mall was about the only thing I had done, and play games. Well there was the Je that I wrote this morning real early, but after that it was pretty much off to bed, and then when i woke up, I did not have any laundry to do, nor did I have any other things to do, I thought about my haircut, and so I went to the Mall to get it cut as well as mail off stuff that I needed to get mailed, and then also even ate there to conclude my 24 hour fast, so my day was pretty much filled with doing mall stuff. i even returned a robe that I was never going to use. But NEway the only thing interesting that happened at the mall was that I found a wireless (cell) phone next to the ATM and it was ringing and so I answered it thinking that it was a person trying to find their phone, and it was and I told them where i found it, and so they told me to go to Customer Service and so I did but nobody was there, and so I just left it at the desk with security. other than that not much has happened, and as I predicted the guys did not come over like they said they would, nor did they try to call me or anything, so I was stuck with my miserable poor pathetic lonley life. heck those that even got my contact information, it took them quite a while to get it, so it just shows me how much they really care and appreciate an older person "taging along" or even hanging out with one. So tonight I just may watch a movie in the room or something, or even play my games that I just broiught at the mall. i got the PowerPuff Girls for my PS2 (wich was pretty cheap) as well as Luxor3 and 7Wonders (which came together at a low price lol), and they both seem pretty fun to play as well. now on my early morning trip, I did get a trash barrel at Wal-Ma, as well as a new Laundry Basket since my laundry basket is broken everywhere, but I also ordered stamps, and they forgot to get them to me, so i will go and probably get them. but I guess i will wait till the morning comes when that cashier works again (if she is still there). Saturday, March 28, 2009 B4 I forget Category: MySpace Well it is actually 4:20 in the morning and i have just done some "picture projects" which is something new here at myspace, and have made som picture cubes, so if anyone wants to see them feel free to check them out, perhaps you may find your pic on them (the friends) since i kind of randomly done the pics, so if your pic is there fell free to print one and create the Cube for yourrself. Friday, March 27, 2009 Frickin Friday Current mood: annoyed Category: Life Well friday is here, and soon starts the weekend, and I am once agian doing that 24 hour fast again, and am feeling the effects now of being hungry, yet I often do that to know that others out there tend to have it worse than I. NEway, my day was the usual friday, and it all started with my class of auditioning, and we spoke a bit about resumes, but mostly talked about the types of auditing again, and I volunteered to just to learn and get some more experience. After class it was off to lunch, and another funny thing similar to last friday happened, but this time it was not the fly thing lol (see last weeks entry about Friday, and the cute girl approaching me) NEway, this time another cute girl was approaching me as I was eating at the table, and I was thinking to myself "I hope I do not have my fly down again", but instead, she did approach me, and she was not trying to talk to me because she may have known who I was, nor whisper 'your fly is down' instead she came to me and saw that I had fish, and was asking me where I got the fish from, so right away I knew that she was Catholic (since many of us grew up not eating meat on friday's) and we had a bit of an interesting conversation. Well after the lunc was over for me, I got a text from the "Dating game" person, and she wanted to have an early dinner, and so we had the dinner, but I was trying to go on my fast, and so I just purchased her the dinner across the street at a place called "The Pita Pit' and then treated her to some ice cream next door from "Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory" I think I may have some points from her as being the one she chooses, yet I also explained a bit about an earlier situation happening, and some plans of my future that may also be effective to me not being chosen. Then I escorted her to her practice. After that I was pretty much trying to clean my room, and so I was vaccuming as well as doing laundry, alsop preparing for the Ice Arena which the college was doing for the night. I knew that the "Dating Game Girl" would not go, becvause of the fact that last year, i remember how much she was afraid that she was going to fall. Even though i hardly knew her last year, she just somehow trusted me to hold her hand on the ice, and we knew that it was just strictly for helping purposes. So I ended up going to the ice arena by myself, since the captain has a bad back he could not do it. the dating game girl is afraid of the ice, and many of my other so called friends decided to go out to a party, and not even invite me, which leads me to my thoughts once again as to who really appreciates me, and who uses me. NEway the Ice arena thing was fun, but still I would have rather hung out with friends, and one actually was nice enough to txt me back saying that he was at a party, which kind of got me to my sad stuper, one was not inviting me, then 2 was that he came back with his friends, and they were totaly trashed, and I was just so sad that there they were making asses of themselves and probably having a good time, while I was just all alone playing the innocent person who never goes anywhere. I would have at least appreciated an invitation, but no. NEway, it was kind of funny everything else that went on. Well back to the whole Ice arena thing again, it was not so bad, plus the "Livewell" organization of the college was there and had promoted the awareness of drunk driving and stuff, and they even had some sort of special goggles that made thing look like the wearer was in a drunken stooper, it was all wobbly, and the coordination was really off. so it was kind of neat wearing those, and trying to walk the line as well as catch the ball. Now it is just off to do whatever, since it is the weekend, and there is not much plans for me. i just hope that one of my former roomates friends does hold up to his word about comming over tomorrow and inviting me over to a party, but I least doubt it, because i have come to the conclusion that even though I am "A good man" these youth will just probably just do something to just use me, but then again only time will friking tell. Speaking of friendship issues and stuff, i did make an appointment with the psycologist for monday, but I bet I know what she is going to say, and probably how she is going to evaluate me. Not really insane, but some sort of person wanting the attention, but time will only tell on that one as well. 11:21 PM 0 Comments(Add Comment) |0 KudosTranslatePowered by Thursday, March 26, 2009 Tuesday wednesday and thursday Current mood: depressed Category: Life Well I have been experimenting withthe new Bolt site, and some friends want me to continue here despite the fact that i started with Bolt, so I guess i will copy and paste on both sites, even though it seems as if I am on the top list again on Bolt. NEWay, I will start by talking about the last 3 days including today (if I can remember lol). Well as usual my tuesday was quite big due to the fact that tuesdays always are. NEway my class started in the morning with the script anaylisis, and we had done Oedipus rex over class, and spoke a bit about it. After that it was off to dialects class, where surprisingly, I got a high score on my Southern monologue, because i did not remember the piece, I actually used the cheat sheet, and used it like a prop, and got the full points. the professor had said that it was because of the fact that I said "I will be reading Chipman" rather than "I will be presenting..." but I had done pretty well on the monologue, and I used my lines as a prop, as the script did call for, yet i know that another theatre professor would never have approved and would have called it cheating (lol) . After Dielects it was off to my math where I had finished my exam, but I do not think i done so well on it. then a Student government meeting afterward. and after the meeting was over, my friend had made it slip out that the "Dating game thing" was in about an end. so since he told me, I was pretty ok with it because I felt that he deserved her, so I just decided to go out on my own afterward, and think how I was going to pretend that i did not know, and do a secretively give something, then act heartbroken, but I was planning all this when i went to my favorite place that i used to hang out in before I started hanging with the young college students. And plenty of bartenders and waitress were happy to se me all over again, and i ended up having some free shots by them, yet also watched my intake, since I was driving. Well wednesday rolls around, and i had my onne class for the day of Auditioning, and as I predicted it was the other group doing their auditions, yet we had to be very distractive, and it did break peoples concentrationas fun at the same time. After that I went to lunch, and then the "LunchBox Theatre" and the scenic designer of the theatre Dept had spoken about the way many things work in this department. Also I was taped shut on the lips for the afternoon, for womens rights across the world. the RHA was sponcering a "Red Tape" event where many had wore it around their shoulder, while I chose to werar it around my mouth, since I know in some countries women do not have voiuces, and are treated poorly. After that I was off to Montrose, to do my duties there, yet not many people had any concerns, and so i just dropped off the intent forms for Student Government. After that i was off to Speech practice, where my Captain had told me that the "Dating game thing was back on again, and so i had decided that he will make up for it during Kareoke later that night. Well kareoke went nicely, yet one other friend had shown up, and (the one that was referred to as Self Centered bitch a while back) and she was trying to get me to hook up with the dating game partner, yet my captain was also trying to hook back up with "Self Centered bitch' despite the fact that she is supposedly engaged. however, I think that they both admitted their love for each other secretivle, in some sort of obvious way, I could almost tell from the beginning that somehow that they love each other despite their feauds and diffrences. Well after that it was off to the room, where some had gathered back to wathc "Rocky Horror picture Show" and i had done most of tha participations till about the middle part, since i did not know every "audience participation" stuff. now it comes down to Thursday which was filled as usual, but not as busy, and by that I mean that it was mostly an observing day because of the fact that my first class we watched Eiodopis rex in script anaylisis, and then it was off to my dialects class where it was also watching a movie that had Brooklyn dialect (New York) since that will be the next study, and after that it was off to my math class, where things just got crazy. But the day was not started so well, since I had gotten up late, and so i did not have time to shower or clean up, so i just went straight to my classes, and just played the part that I was sick (and in some ways i actually was, since the cold weather kind of gets to me. But that was pretty much my day for classes. After classes i was off to dinner, and i had met up with my captain (or at least he met up with me) and so we ate together. Then a friend from the floor had joined us as well and we were getting into conversation about going to the club and stuff, as well as probably "getting some" yet this conversation i guess put me in a really poor depressive stage, so far down that it almost lead to my suisidal attempt. I had the note and everything typed up, and my belt in the closet, but thanks to the captain arriving, I guess he had helpe out quite a bit, and I feel ever so stuuuooopid and sad that I would ever do such a thing. Other things had gotten me up as well after my captain and best friend left, i got some spiritual guidance from EWTN since I was flipping through channels, and it was like God lead me there, plus I looked up the counseling services, and will probably make an appointment to visit a psycologist in the morning since on fridays they are only open from 8-11 but are open weekdays from 8-5. Perhaps I need to balance my chemicals in the brain, and that is why I want to see a psycologist, because i have been having "suicidal thoughts" lately, and so I want to get some medications to balance out these chemicals. I know that BHS is providing free services to students, and so I will do that. 11:21 PM 0 Comments(Add Comment) |0 KudosTranslatePowered by Monday, March 23, 2009 last Entry here? Current mood: bouncy Category: Life Well since Bolt is now back up and running, I think I may be returning my Journal Entries there, the link is posted upon the Bolt badge that was posted a few days ago. NEway since this may be the last post, I will still go here to play the games and stuff, but I will try to post my entire day as well. First thing this morning it was off to class, and i had gotten my evaluation, and was quite impressed with the evaluation results en though i did not recieve an A for the class presentation, a B+ is pretty good. in class we also done our presentations again, and this time it was put into something of a situation where nobody was laughing, or showing any interest. and it did teach some lessons. After that it was off to donate Blood, yet I was not allowed to because of the fact that my pulse was high, and so it angered me just a bit. I was explaining the fact that i had just gotten out of a physical class, which built up the nerves and stuff, and he deferred me for a day, I do not know why he could not just take my pulse again, I just needed to calm down a bit, since I was especially excited a bit, and since everything else was ok, i do not know why he could not just take my pulse again, so i did not get any free tickets to the JUCO baseball legue (but that is not the reason I wanted to donate anyway. After that it was off to just hang out a bit with my friend, yet i kind of somewhat napped in his room, despite me getting him up lol, but as he was fully up, so was I, and then we just spoke a bit about the practice which will come later tonight. After that it was off to lunch, and it was a pretty long one, since it was soft tacos, curly fries, as well as corndogs, but nothing much interesting happened there, i just took my time to eat, and was remembering the situation that happened friday, but this time I know that i did not have my fly down. After lunch it was off to the Mall, since I did not know what else i was going to do. and as I was at the Mall I rememberd the fact that i needed to get new licence plates, despite my main reason was to get some soap and shampoo as well as a new bath towell waist wrap. NEway, I went to the DMV (since it was in the mall) waited for a while, and showed my claim number, yet I could not get my old plates back since they were special plates, and were "retired" and so I decided to get new plates, and these plates were special plates as well, they feature my college on them, and so i got those plates, and since my old KofC plates were comming going to expire in 3 month anyway, the DMV suggested that i get those special plates, and they re-embursed me the months that I had already had left. so getting new set just was better, and now my car is legal again. After that situation it was off to practice where i was a bit late due to the situation of trying to get the plates, but at least I am now able to ride freely without getting pulled over since the state requires a front plate and a back plate. many other States just require back plates. But NEwho, practice did not go very long, and so i just ate a bit of the tenders that my captain had bought for the person that we were trying to play "The Dating Game" with, yet she had emergencies come up, and so it was back to the room. While I was in the room i had decided to do some laundry (the whites this time) and as I was doing them I got invited to Bible Study, and so i went there, and this time I ran into some Catholics that questioned their faith, and so i just got the opportunity to speak after bible Study, and I done my best to say what i have learned, and what should be going on etc., I know that this is more for my private journal, yet, I am writing this one, just because my mind is flowing and remembering what is going on, almost like brainstorming (but then again most of my JE's are lol) NEway we had great conversation, and perhaps God had called me to try to help those that have lost faith gain their faith back. i have somehow even felt it through friends, despite them not being Catholic, but All of Christianity had begun with Jusus Christ and so I work on trying to do God's will. 11:46 PM 3 Comments(Add Comment) |0 KudosTranslatePowered by Sunday, March 22, 2009 Sunday, a new week Current mood: accomplished Category: Religion and Philosophy Well today my sunday was not really packed through out the day except for the fact that I was studying a bit of my lines, as well as doing my laundry, then later while almost finishing my laundry instead of going to the mall or something to look for that towel wrap that I put upon myself while going to the shower, I had a friend come over because he wasd pretty upset over some issues, and so i let him hang around, and hopefully that calmed him down a bit, but he also wanted other friends to come over as well, and so i called some over, and I hope they did not feel like they were being imposed upon, but then again I guees they also had a good time as well (hopefully) because I had my games and stuff even though they did not stay long.; but the other friends I think knew that he was a bit depressive, and so they hopefully calmed him down some bit. Other than that it was not much bad of a day, and hopefully everything will be alright with the depressed friend. But I think so because it seems as if I invite that other friend over, he seems to get better, perhaps it is because he wanted to go out with her, but reminds himself that she is taken, and it makes him fell better, but then again, i am no Sigmund Freud, and only observe what I see, since my life does not seem to have much going on, plus I guess i also use that to preform my acting stuff. Speaking of acting stuff, I had a test to take today, and so I started "cramming up" for the test since it is online, and due before midnight tonight, and so after everyone left, i decided to read, and do my test. and after that was done I went to my myspace account, just to blog about the day. 11:07 PM 0 Comments(Add Comment) |0 KudosTranslatePowered by Saturday, March 21, 2009 Friday And saturday since it is kinda boring Category: Life Well my friday was off to an an interesting start, and that is because of the fact that I was getting ready for a shower, when suddenly the Fire alarm went buzzing waking everyone up that was probably just going to bed, since they did not have morning classes, but in my case I had my classes to get ready to, but could not. I had just taken off my button towel when suddenly I heard that noise, so I had to quickly go to my room and get dressed. NEway, after the fire department arrived, there was no fire, and so we all went back into the building. I on the other hand was wearing my dirty clothes, and could no longer shower, and so I went just as I was, but at least I was not late Well my friday class was like any ordinary friday with one class, and that class i ended up doing evaluations on the ones presenting themselves that day. Plus my partner that I worked with in doing the monolugue piece had presented herself, and she had greatly improved. Well after that it was off to lunch to have grilled catfish, and it was a good thing that I came early because of the fact that they quickly ran out of Fish, because they did not order as much as they usualy do, plus they have been giving out the good fish on wednesday for those of us Catholics that like to "abstain" from red meat on Wednesdays. Well Neway they do order the good fresh stuff on wednesdays, and they will go fast which is probably the reason they go fast. NEWay an embarrasing thing had happened to me later in the cafeteria, not to embarrasing, but slightly. and what happened was that i stood up for a while to tease my former roomate about him setting off the fire alarm and stuff, and then went back to my seat, and then some good looking girls went to my direction. I thought nothing of them leaving, yet one was so focused on me, and kept looking at me while I was sitting. Then she got closer and closer, and approached me as if she was going to say something to me, and all I was thinking was "do I know this lady? is she going to talk to me and say something?" and so I looked her straight in the eye, and she did even come closer, then she bent over to talk whisper in my ear "your fly is undone.". OMG all this for my fly being undone what a laugh lol. NEway it was pretty funny and i thought I would share that info, because that seems to only be the height of the day. Well during the evening I was called by the captain, and he had wanted to hang out especially with one other team member, and so the rest of the night was spent doing absolutly nothing but hanging out, and i could not remember much, yet I was not drinking, and it was just not a drinking night, but I do remember that prior to that frisbee was also being played since there was a glowing disc. perhaps I could not remember much because I chose to go on a fast 24 hours, and so I did not end up waking till about 3 in the aftyernoon. As for my saturday, I got to mostly sit in during the day, and watch lots of Disney shows. i did do a bit of shopping since I missed the paper Airplanes contest sponcered by Red Bull, plus I watched a bit of the Phineus and Ferb spot the diffrence episodes, which is a lot to watch, and that is when i got to go online instead to upkeep the entries for the weekend so far. I will probably watch a movie or something in my room tonight since I have nothing else better to do. 10:32 PM 1 Comments(Add Comment) |0 KudosTranslatePowered by Thursday, March 19, 2009 My Friday? Current mood: confused Category: Life Well the title says Friday? because that is how it felt today, seeing as one class was cancelled (my math) but other than that it was just the typical thursday. Well my morning class was going over Greek plays, and I was just about to go by myself, and then I suddenly started thinking about my Captain with whom I happen to have the class with, and so I decided to go to his room to see if he was awake, and almost like me he too was just getting up, yet I had already showered, and was ready to go to class, and I did not have any breakfast. But NEway, class went pretty long, and because of the night before, i was kind of tired, despite having a good time. After that it was off to pick up my lunch, and everyone from my class picked up their "Jesus Lunch" while I picked up my regular cafeteria lunch. As always every thursdays the people from some religious organization give out food and the theatre people usualy get them, and call it the "Jesus Lunch" well NEway i picked up my food from the mess hall, and along the way happen to run into some people that was promoting Jesus as well butr for a diffrent church, and so I grabbed a few cards, and put them into my bag, and said to the people in class "Look I got a Jesus Lunch Too" and they understood the irony of that. NEWay that class went pretty well we had to present our monologues for the "Southern accent" part of the class, and I thought I had to memorize it, yet I did practice it, over the break, but did not memorize it; however, still got the good comments as to how I improved from the last time I wrote it, and so the next class will have to be memorized, yet I am not sure if i will do so good, despite my accent comming through. After that it was free time since my math class was not around, due to the professor having a "prior commitment" (someone in he family was getting married), and so there was not class, yet i did manage to hang around the girl that I sang kareoke with last night, but it was only after evning dinner, and we actually went out to the College night event at the dance club. all we did was talk a lot about our lives, as well as get to know eachj other well, we did not dance, and i think I got her drunk, and that was not my intention, but as long as she had a good time, i was glad that she was having a good time. She did not seem to have a good time in the club, because she said that she was not a dancer, but I think it was because i kept buying her drinks, and she may have gotten "creeped out by that" so afterward i took her to Village Inn to eat, and we conversed some more, and it seemed as if we have plenty of similarities, despite being from two diffrent religions. She was a Catholic at one time but that was before some family complications (I think)went through (I assume but I have not asked her) because she noticed my licence plate and saw that it was a KofC plate, and her grandfather had plates like that too. But NEwho, she is a baptist she had told me, and she knows that I am a Catholic, and she knew a lot about Catholisism, because I think she knew from younger ages. but I did notice how she liked many movies and shows that I liked as well, so perhaps relationships may not be a way, but then again maby so. but time will only tell. I have heard that similarities often lead to disaster, so perhaps we could start off as real close friends (but I think I may already be in that spot lol) and we just may start waching movies and dvd's together, but like I said Time will only tell. 3:14 PM 0 Comments(Add Comment) |0 KudosTranslatePowered by