A letter and a goodbye

The heart squeezes and throat closes, leaving me speechless. The head hurts as all our history passes, like in a movie, I remember every moment. I wonder if all this is really worth it. I do not know if things are really changing or am I fooling myself, pretending that we still have a chance.

Time passes and every bump in the road is a new battle. I try to take them, but it seems that I have lost the strength. This is killing me, It's killing my love, killing gradually. I do not know how much longer I can handle carrying on all alone.

Even when we're together I feel alone, because now everything is different and we no longer share the same dreams more. I pretend it does, but deep down I know it's not, after all, there is always something holding you here.

And those simple moments, calm, easy smiles and silly talk, no longer exist. That's what hurts the most. It's all very heavy. I'm trying to remember where did we get lost.

Maybe one day you can understand that I always offered you more than you could ever need and I accept most of what you had to offer me.