Not much has been happening where I am so I haven't much news to share, but I'll give you a little idea in how I'm getting on...
School has been easy enough for me, I find the work too easy. Last week a young man came into our class and explained his alcohol and drug addictions from the past. He wanted to make us all aware about the effects of drugs and how much it can definitely harm or ruin a life. I respect the man very much because it takes a lot of courage to stand before a crowd of teenagers and explain the consequences of alcohol and drugs. The man is currently on recovery, he said he would have to be for all his life. He also mentioned that he could be dead if he ever took alcohol or drugs again since it affected his body system very much. The man told us that he was sent to an institution for years to recover, and he said that talking to those who were going through the same situations helped him a lot. The man's talk with us all in the class surely did help us as it encouraged us to never take drugs and to enjoy life for the way we have it, as healthy human beings. I actually find it really sad that some people decide to turn to drugs over their weaknesses instead of doing realistic actions of getting back up from where you fell and get away from the likes of drugs, because all it truly does is lead people to hate, accidents and even death. It's proven and shown that drugs leave addicts in this 'high mood' but isn't it crazy in how people would actually risk their lives on a chemical dose to be happy. I mean where's people's dignity and self respect gone? All I can say is; people will do whatever they wish, please and desire, and won't for one second think of how you and I feel since their caring reputation has faded away and is filled with poison, and the outcome of it all is quite embarrassing as people usually bring out their worst sides when on alcohol or drugs. The truth of the matter is showing us a great deal and example; to never follow this path because all it proves and does is show us how easily lead and taken away people can become when choosing this certain temptation. The man now is choosing to live a positive lifestyle, he's in the middle of doing a PLC course in Ballinode which is just fantastic. Since I'm on the subject about drugs, there is something I should let you know but in little detail. Some people in my family even took drugs in the past when they were going through some sort of struggle, and their now away from all that waste, thankfully from learning the effects and consequences drugs usually leads people to. The biggest effect would usually be from becoming addicted or consumed by drugs, and the consequences would be family complications and fall outs. Not only does drugs effect the person who takes it but it also effects the family members and friends or the people around them. And if you're ever in the position of peer pressure or whatever it may be that involves drugs or a situation where you might feel full of regret; think, think not only for your own health and safety but also for the people and things you care for! The trouble with some people is that they're that down on themselves from life that they haven't any clue or feeling of hope or for what tomorrow brings. Overall what I suggest is... If you're a strong enough person with character that always has choices and feelings of instincts within, don't weaken yourself by depending on drugs or alcohol to be happy or satisfied. Just because some others might be doing so because they've given up and have no ambition or self respect for their health and bodies, doesn't mean you've got to be the same! I suggest for everyone to depend on patience, love and music or whatever else you may like that is a good thing for you; such as your interests or hobbies that are things that truly make you feel good and worthy to being alive, but never drugs because all these examples are there to show us how wise or easily lead we may be. Not only does drugs kill the true goodness in people but it also distracts individuals from all the great possibilities that they have ahead. There is nothing anyone else can truly do to stop a drug addict from taking drugs; our encouragement, threats or even force of care or guidance isn't even helping them truly because the only way they will get better and away from this addiction and habit is by helping and changing for only themselves to improve.
I realize that people are forgetting the Earth's need to survive, not only is our lives important but so is our natures and environments that we're surrounded by. Everything in this planet seems to be replaced with human greed or waste. I find it so sad and shocking to know that these are the reasons why people have accidents and feelings of doubt. One day, if it's ever possible, the world would be filled with gloomy cities and less of natures atmosphere , which isn't good for us nor for our future generation's environment. It seems that people forget or take natural beauty and Earth's need to live for granted. Because the more nature and plants die or become destroyed; the more the Earth will fill with anger of pollution and create unpredictable natural disasters. Which makes me wonder and realize why tornadoes and hurricanes and tsunami's exist and are happening in the first place. It seems to be happening because the Earth's core doesn't want this on its planet world, no way! Without trees, insects and animals is like humans struggling to survive from no fresh air of oxygen, which leads to death and short lives. We all need to think and depend on more important things instead of our own petty problems because in order for our future generation and children to live on the Earth we live in, it would need oxygen and it's Earthly creatures to remain stable, and without trees and rainforests the Earth could suffocate and become a ruin and end up dying to start all over again with us extinct and new evolving creatures or physical beings to live here. Which we don't want because we want our present civilization to live on as humanity in a fresh environmental way. You have the power and ability to make a difference to improve our Earth, even if it's just caring for one another and protecting flowers and plants to keep them alive and recycling daily or just giving kindness to people that are those you can expect in return. Just ask yourself 'what would life be like without flowers, nature of green, trees, animals, sunshine and goodness in humanity's mannerism and respect or even without humanity at all.' We all need it once in a while, and everyone surely seems to deserve it. All you've got to do in life, is start over again in a new day and remember from the memories you've learned from the past and seek present goals for the good and well being of others, and mostly yourself. If you can do this with a positive attitude and a courageous heart, then in a couple years from now you'll feel proud in how worthwhile you've made yourself and life to become! If you can live and give people hope and faith about true matters that mean very much to all of us for their future well being as it shows others to follow optimistic paths as they will follow, no man or woman would be unhappy to know that they do have support by another. By doing all this as a fortunate human being, you are thee Earth's hero; as your saving and healing your own living planet!
Yours, Jason Mills
Tuesday, 20th December 2011
Dear Jay!
I haven't been reporting about my daily life as much as I used to anymore since I sometimes wouldn't find it necessary to write about things unless their interesting or suitable enough to share. I guess I can tell you a couple of things, but nothing you haven't read about me before.
School has been usually boring that Lucy, Rose and I simply can't find much to do for fun but to stand near a radiator at lunch since the school is nearly always freezing in the Winter season, so we'd either be up against the radiator or standing near a window on the upper floor of the school building where we can chat and have conversations more privately and in peace without any interruptions of load voices from the busy corridors of students rushing by. I'll also be getting my Christmas holidays this Wednesday but I'm not really excited about all that if i'm being perfectly honest because it's not as though I'm stressed from classes since it bores me so much as there sometimes isn't much to do but things we already know. Today our class watched a DVD and relaxed while the teacher of Maths bought us hot chocolates as a Christmas treat, so that was nice. Other than my life and school news, I've also political news to share which I researched on the Internet. It's mostly all about the end of the Iraq war and the U.S. troops return home to the United States. This is what I've found: "President Barack Obama welcomes U.S. troops home from Iraq as he marked an end to a war he once described as 'dumb' by declaring the conflict in Iraq a success and saying that the last of the U.S. troops will leave in the coming days with their 'heads held high'. The president told an audience of soldiers at Fort Bragg that the final pull out from Iraq after nearly nine years of war is a 'historic' moment and that the country they leave behind is an 'extraordinary achievement'. 'Early Sunday, as the sun ascended to the Winter sky, the very last American convoy made it's way down the main highway that connects Iraq and Kuwait. The military called it it's 'tactical road march.' A series of 110 heavily armored, hulking trucks and nine resident ambush protected vehicles carrying about 500 soldiers streamed slowly but steadily out of the combat zone. A few minutes before 8am, the metal gate behind the last MRAP closed with it came to an end a deadly and divisive war that lasted almost nine years, it's enormous cost calculated in blood and billions. Once, when hundreds of thousands of Americans were in Iraq, the main highway was better known as main supply Route Tempa and soldiers trekked north towards Baghdad and beyond, never knowing what danger lurked on their path. On this monumental day, the texas-based 3rd Brigade Special troops Battalton, 1st cavalry Divisions main concern was how to avoid a traffic jam on their final journey in Iraq. Staff Sgt. Daniel Gaumer, 37, was on this road in August 2003. It was his first time at war. He was frightened. There was not a lot of traffic at the time, he recalled. He remembered a lot of cheering by Iraqis, even though the situation was tense. 'It's pretty historic'', he said about the drive south, hoping he will not ever have to come back through this unforgiving terrain again. Once there was bases sprinkled in the desolate desert between Najirya and Basra, American soldiers hidden from view behind walls of giant mesh Hesco boys filled with dirt and sand to stave off incoming fire. On this day, the roads, the bases were in Iraq's hands, the sand in the boys returned to the earth. Once, almost nine years ago in March 2003, U.S. tanks and armored personnel carriers had thundered north, with the drive and determination needed to decapitate a dictator. On this day, heading south towards Khabari border crossing, the soldiers took stock of their sacrifice. In another war, there had been little joy or even emotion as final jet transport lifted Americans from Vietnamese soil. Sunday saw the end of the largest troop drawdown for the United States since Vietnam. These man and women who fought in Iraq may not feel they are leaving behind an unfinished war or returning home to a nation as deeply scarred as it was after years of Vietnam. But many crossed the border harbouring mixed feelings and doubt about the future of Iraq.
'The biggest thing about going home is just that it's home', Gauner said. 'It's civilization as I know it-the western world, not sand and dust and the occasional rain here and there.' A month ago, Adder, the last U.S. base before the five hour drive to the Kuwati border, housed 12,000 people. By Thursday, the day the United States formally ended it's mission in Iraq with a flag-casing ceremony in Baghdad, under 1,000 people remained there. The 3rd Brigade Special Troops Battalton, 1st cavalry Division officially transferred central of camp Adder to the Iraqis on Friday though it did not really change hands until the last American deported early Sunday morning. The United States will still remain a presence in Iraq; hundreds of nonmilitary personnel, including 1,700 diplomats, law enforcement officers, and economic, agricultural and other experts, according to the state Department. In addition, 5,000 security contractors will protect Americans and another 4,500 contractors will serve in other roles. The quiet U.S. exit, shrouded in secrecy until it occured, closed a war that was contentious from the start and cost the nation more then $800 billion. President Barack Obama, who had made a campayne promise to bring home American troops, reflected on a greater cost as Sunday's exit made good on his word. According to the defense department, 4,487 service members were killed in the war. More than 30,000 were wounded. In all, 1.5 million Americans served their nation at war. 'All of them,-our troops, Veterans, and their families-will always have the thanks of a grateful nation', Obama said in his weekly radio address Saturday. It's impossible to know with certainty of Iraqis who have died in Iraq since 2003. But the independent public database Iraq body count had compiled reports of more than 150,000 between the invasion and October 2010, with four out of five dead being civilians. And the question of how Iraq will fare in the months ahead, without U.S. troops, is also impossible to answer. Even before the last soldier had left, political crisis was erupting in Baghdad. The powerful political Blc Iraqiya said it was suspending it's participation in parliament, which would threaten Iraq's fragile power-sharing arrangement. Iraqiya accuses Iraqi Prime Minister Nuri Al-Maliki of amassing power. The withdrawal of U.S. troops stirred conflicting emotions as the streets of Baghdad. In the predominately Sunni neighbourhood of Adhamiya, where Saddam hussein made his final public appearance in 2003, a man said residents were afraid, tense and worried about Iran's influence. He refused to appear on camera or give his name because of what he said was the sensitive nature of the situation. In a shia neighbourhood on the otherside of the city, one man said he supported the toppling of Hussein's regime, but felt too much blood was shed afterward. "The U.S.A went through and they ruined this country (bringing) with them many troubles. And now they're going and... More trouble's coming", said the man, who asked to be called Abi Ali for security reasons. But for the last U.S. troops out, the message was clear. Col. Doug Crissiman, their commander, spend the past few weeks speaking to the soldiers in each of his companies. He told them he was proud of his troops and they should be proud of what they had accomplished. And, he wanted his soldiers to take care of themselves back home as much as they did in Iraq. In the months before the brigade deployed in February, it lost 13 soldiers to accidents, some because of driving under the influence of alcohol. At least one death was a suicide. "Quite frankly we lost more soldiers in peacetime in the nine or ten months before this brigade deployed due to accidents and risky behaviour... Then we lost here in combat", Crissman said. "We want every soldier that survived this combat deployment to survive redeployment and reintegration." Capt. Mark Askew, 28, said he was worried about the well-being of his soldiers, many of whom have done multiple tours of Iraq and felt the stress and sting the war was the loss, the grief, worth it? For Askew, it will all depend on how Iraq's future unfolds-whether democracy and human rights will take root, whether Iraq will be a steadfast U.S.A. ally. It will depend, he said, on how Iraq shapes it's own destiny.
So there you are, the research I've found on Google, but from the way it seems I can imagine the true experience that the civilians and soldiers from both Iraq and U.S. had was much more serious and life changing in a shocking way for them then from what I read by the research. So many lives we're spared and taken away and risked to create change or development or for protection on either countries. So many brave men and women we're willing enough to risk their own lives for their countrymen, but the sad part for me was having to visually imagine a person dying over the hate and greed of their political leaders from allowing this war to ever happen in the first place or for ever allowing their citizens to take such a risk in a battlefield. And the truth is... Everyone has a voice and an opinion and shall be humanely equal within their-self dignity, and no death or dictating arguments of one leader can take that away, because the righteousness is still in our hearts. I see that if we all come together as the oneness, and speak respectfully for all our nation's right then we are commonly more powerful and sensible in a way than fighting to sacrifice or to increase fear on our planet. Not only would speeches and ideas help to increase our present world of knowledge but sharing and doing things freely as groups to earn a living in helping the environment and ourselves to remain in a safer and a more positive surrounding would be best too. The things I see people crave upon in this world and wish to have are nothing but distractions and complications sine its the simple things that makes life worth living. I see that if people go in the same direction; in seeking a life experience or a dream that others wish for, I see that it won't satisfy you in accomplishing a reputation of fame or popularity since true respect in something you truly want and believe in is much more appealing and fulfilling. In the past, actually sometimes still I do fantasize about living a life of wealth and fame but as my self-knowledge progressed through this year I've learnt that to be successful on the inside for something you get self-respect for and for something that makes ourselves feel happy with, is far more important. All I can say now is that if we all as equal individuals become open minded enough to know how powerful and special we are and still can be if we forgive our inner sorrows and let the light in our hearts out in the open air to express and show our friendlier nature as it makes everyone realize that anyone can change and better themselves, if only they'd try and put the effort into really seeing the brighter sides of things. You might find all this too hard to believe, but if you just peacefully close your eyes and block out all the voices around you that might try proving you wrong, and to put the palm of your hand onto your chest, near your heart, you shall feel you're self's worth as it proves that everyone truly does have goodness, always in spirit and in their heart as they truly do deserve to live. I know that I'm not the only one in this one world that believes that everyone has goodness and can better the world by being better people, the only solution to make this happen is to repair what was damaged, which means coming to understand those who have come to surrender into the darkness of lost, but we can help those who want to be helped into good solutions by giving encouragement and helping them on their path of self-worth. So yes, all this is far more better than fame and wealth. Helping the planet and treating everyone, including yourself, on the right path by following our inner knowledge to new ideas, and if we can succeed in impressing people with good ideas for the good of all then that opens up light pathways and leads the blind, the lost, the dark into the work and development with light workers. When we come to understand and succeed from finding our path and way in life, it's possible for other individuals to become more optimistic and find their ways too by our inspirational ways with friendliness and help. If this can happen then maybe it could encourage young people to avoid bad decisions, bad paths and even bad influences as there soon wont be any as there will be too many paths to choose from that no one would be lost. Overall this could all encourage people such as soldiers to stop destroying the environments of Earth by their guns and bombs, and maybe spend more time with working on peace and been with their families and loved ones.
Before I stop writing, I'd just like to mention that I hope all the soldiers from the U.S. and in Iraq keep safe and take good care of themselves in this Winter season and around Christmas time where everyone deserves to be happy and with their friends!
Yours, Jason Mills
Tuesday, 27th December 2011
Dearest Jay,
Over these past two years I've learnt so much about myself and about life too. I've learnt how to face difficult times with a smile. I've learnt what true happiness really is. I see now that happiness doesn't just come from what you give or receive but from having strength and courage to get through all the odds. Happiness also comes from inner care; in how you take care of your body and health and in also how you treat yourself and others around you, physically and emotionally. Happiness is a sweet, delightful feeling that we get inside from our soul or conscience as it tells us that we're doing the right thing and on the right path to true success. I've learnt so much about my inner being from all the emotional moments of my life. When I'm happy I'd feel I'm doing the right thing. When I'm hurt or sad I deserve to be left alone in peace. When I'm scared I'll have to find ways out of this darkened situation and find myself into the light again by making the right decisions. When I'm angry my heart is testing me in how courageous and strong I am by holding onto some source of hope in avoiding my negative emotions and performing my actions into quietness by not fighting the enemy as I know the enemy wants me to hate and go down to their foolish level, but I'll promise myself and the world that I will try to never become such a hater as hateful people want, but maybe it's best to treat myself right by being a kinder lover! My conscience is clear; I've come to the conclusion that the inner existence is far more beautiful and everlasting than the human lives that our eternal souls tribe in a lifetime. I see inside myself that we all carry life energy and beauty from the goodness we spread and the kindness we give to another in a moments time of life. I realize now that this life is based on how we progress ourselves emotionally and momentarily as independent earthly beings while we're still alive to better our inner selves as we will leave again to begin new spirit journeys in seeking new realms and life's to live and share.
So, I really do want to live; I want to do everything. As each day goes by it takes me a step closer to my spirit's home in Divine. It takes us all a little closer to where we're so meant to be; whether it's finding love or even a home to feel peace and safe in.
Overall I think I've found my way in life and I definitely believe that I might just be capable of helping others find their paths when their lost too. Other than my deep feelings inner beings, I've had a nice Christmas this year.
Last Thursday I went into town with Nanny G and Granddad Robbie to buy all my friends and family gifts and presents for Christmas. I spent all my money until I had none left. Nanny was very surprised with how much I got for everyone. She believed I was being too nice but I loved doing it because I could just imagine everyone's delightful faces when they seen how thoughtful and understanding I was since I knew all their interests and hobbies. I also bought my both grandparents a pair of footwear since I appreciated their idea of going into town and shopping with me. On Christmas day I visited many family members and I received many wonderful gifts from them too. My mother bought me a cool tracksuit, my father bought me a couple of movies and they are ones I enjoy very much. My grandparents bought me very interesting books about classical endurances in a collection by Michael Morpuro. My friends got me many things too which I'm glad to have received, and I thanked them for it. I bought my mother an angel book by an Irish author, I got my grandmother Malone a pair of white gloves and a hat and a scarf for the cold season we're having here from Winter. I bought Lucy a collection of DVD's and an Art set with other drawing essentials for her great talent. I bought Emily and Elizabeth cosmetics. Overall, all my family and friends were greatly satisfied with all the nice surprises I gave them, but deep down I don't think any of those expensive presents could compare to the offerings of my friendship and love for them since my strong connection for them is the best given gift I could ever give in a lifetime. As time goes by, the day might come when my friends and I will go our own separate ways but as I go on, I'll remember all the good times I shared with my friends in my youth times. I'll remember all the times when my friends and me were together when I believed life was forever. But, if I really think of it, even if all of our lives change, we'll still be friends forever; in memory and in the heart of the young. Nothing can take away the wonderful memories we had. And I wouldn't regret any moment I had in life because it only makes me stronger and wise to know that we learn something new every day. Which I believe is the reason why I keep a diary, and will continue to treasure forever because as I've told you so many times, memories and longing feelings are things I'd never erase in my life because it's how I felt in a certain time and place. Sometimes I read over what I wrote in the past and I'd think 'I should have wrote that differently', but what I write is mostly my feelings on the matter which is what my inner voice and inner feelings have to say, and half the time it doesn't logically make sense but other times I believe I'm doing what's right.
But now that I've found wonderful friends (ones from school) my social life has changed a little. These friends I think of know who they are. My friends are coming an age of maturity understanding which means I can become more open with them and not worry whether they'd laugh or misunderstand me anymore as their starting to take my friendship more seriously. I see the reason why people have become so misunderstanding upon another; I believe it's because of the way everyone deals with things... With their opposites and wants which lead to greed and selfishness. If people could just share out the world equally and see that we're all on the one planet to accomplish something great, and if people could just see like I do that everyone's differences are their own qualities and power to leading themselves on the right track. And if people could find it in their hearts to seek that war and disagreements are far more a waste of time than the freedom and kindness we beautifully can give to a person or another. Isn't this much much easier than making matters worse by creating misery and problems that usually doesn't solve anything more than bring misery on innocent people? I know some would agree and disagree, but that isn't the point I'm making here. I'm just trying to lighten the darkness so that people can find their ways in a more positive environment with a renewed planet of possibilities that can begin in the beginning of a new day. I understand that people have their reasons to misunderstanding me as I'm nothing but a boy with thoughts, and some may judge or think of me differently with their stereotype criticism but really I'm just a human being who just happens to believe that people can change, and maybe one day come to feel the bliss my heart and soul currently endures. No matter what happens, no one can ever defeat the love that most people have, and I guess no one can take away the hope and faith people have which I just happen to believe in, in a different way in words but in glorious feelings I'm sure I'm experiencing the same divine emotions within too.
You see, we're all different but beautifully equal in our upstanding right. Our countries, race, nationalities creed doesn't change neither does it compare to the fact that we're all freely humane with our own hearts to give. We all have the same physical bodies (well most of us who are lucky that have a head, arms and legs and God bless those who don't). We all have different features which shine or mark our beauty which is just wonderful to seek and find from a person. We hold or carry a quality that is always something unique or a talent that deserves to be respected and seen as special for it's outstanding or ridiculous humor or act that is not always perfect but possibly funny and entertaining for its imperfection; what I mean is not being too serious but as if to be a wild character.
It's actually funny in how easy the world can be improved because it's just a matter of knowing what's to be done and a habit of doing things differently which will lead people to following that new world of civilization by good habits and good teachings of freedom, spirit, love and equality. If young people can be taught these things and start to believe in them mannerably; I'm sure that they'd grow up to be good, happy human beings with a positive sense of knowledge with great tolerance of acceptance. Its understandable for those who hate and rebel against accepting certain groups of people when as children we we're taught a different history of our culture when countries had their ways of power and ways of surrender, but I'm not writing about gaining power or losing something; I'm talking about change and coming to understand all situations; a way to move forward and show our younger ones a new way of history so that people will see differences and another in a complete different way. All it takes is opening up your heart and having the courage to see what's beneath the surface, what' beyond the pathway, and what's behind what we appear; meaning seeing people for who they are and learning from them as they should from you, as things on Earth are definitely more then what it appears to be!
My last diary entries of 2011
by Jason Mills
Jan 26, 2012
Thursday, 1st December 2011
Dear Jay,
Not much has been happening where I am so I haven't much news to share, but I'll give you a little idea in how I'm getting on...
School has been easy enough for me, I find the work too easy. Last week a young man came into our class and explained his alcohol and drug addictions from the past. He wanted to make us all aware about the effects of drugs and how much it can definitely harm or ruin a life. I respect the man very much because it takes a lot of courage to stand before a crowd of teenagers and explain the consequences of alcohol and drugs. The man is currently on recovery, he said he would have to be for all his life. He also mentioned that he could be dead if he ever took alcohol or drugs again since it affected his body system very much. The man told us that he was sent to an institution for years to recover, and he said that talking to those who were going through the same situations helped him a lot. The man's talk with us all in the class surely did help us as it encouraged us to never take drugs and to enjoy life for the way we have it, as healthy human beings. I actually find it really sad that some people decide to turn to drugs over their weaknesses instead of doing realistic actions of getting back up from where you fell and get away from the likes of drugs, because all it truly does is lead people to hate, accidents and even death. It's proven and shown that drugs leave addicts in this 'high mood' but isn't it crazy in how people would actually risk their lives on a chemical dose to be happy. I mean where's people's dignity and self respect gone? All I can say is; people will do whatever they wish, please and desire, and won't for one second think of how you and I feel since their caring reputation has faded away and is filled with poison, and the outcome of it all is quite embarrassing as people usually bring out their worst sides when on alcohol or drugs. The truth of the matter is showing us a great deal and example; to never follow this path because all it proves and does is show us how easily lead and taken away people can become when choosing this certain temptation. The man now is choosing to live a positive lifestyle, he's in the middle of doing a PLC course in Ballinode which is just fantastic. Since I'm on the subject about drugs, there is something I should let you know but in little detail. Some people in my family even took drugs in the past when they were going through some sort of struggle, and their now away from all that waste, thankfully from learning the effects and consequences drugs usually leads people to. The biggest effect would usually be from becoming addicted or consumed by drugs, and the consequences would be family complications and fall outs. Not only does drugs effect the person who takes it but it also effects the family members and friends or the people around them. And if you're ever in the position of peer pressure or whatever it may be that involves drugs or a situation where you might feel full of regret; think, think not only for your own health and safety but also for the people and things you care for! The trouble with some people is that they're that down on themselves from life that they haven't any clue or feeling of hope or for what tomorrow brings. Overall what I suggest is... If you're a strong enough person with character that always has choices and feelings of instincts within, don't weaken yourself by depending on drugs or alcohol to be happy or satisfied. Just because some others might be doing so because they've given up and have no ambition or self respect for their health and bodies, doesn't mean you've got to be the same!
I suggest for everyone to depend on patience, love and music or whatever else you may like that is a good thing for you; such as your interests or hobbies that are things that truly make you feel good and worthy to being alive, but never drugs because all these examples are there to show us how wise or easily lead we may be. Not only does drugs kill the true goodness in people but it also distracts individuals from all the great possibilities that they have ahead. There is nothing anyone else can truly do to stop a drug addict from taking drugs; our encouragement, threats or even force of care or guidance isn't even helping them truly because the only way they will get better and away from this addiction and habit is by helping and changing for only themselves to improve.
I realize that people are forgetting the Earth's need to survive, not only is our lives important but so is our natures and environments that we're surrounded by. Everything in this planet seems to be replaced with human greed or waste. I find it so sad and shocking to know that these are the reasons why people have accidents and feelings of doubt. One day, if it's ever possible, the world would be filled with gloomy cities and less of natures atmosphere , which isn't good for us nor for our future generation's environment. It seems that people forget or take natural beauty and Earth's need to live for granted. Because the more nature and plants die or become destroyed; the more the Earth will fill with anger of pollution and create unpredictable natural disasters. Which makes me wonder and realize why tornadoes and hurricanes and tsunami's exist and are happening in the first place. It seems to be happening because the Earth's core doesn't want this on its planet world, no way! Without trees, insects and animals is like humans struggling to survive from no fresh air of oxygen, which leads to death and short lives. We all need to think and depend on more important things instead of our own petty problems because in order for our future generation and children to live on the Earth we live in, it would need oxygen and it's Earthly creatures to remain stable, and without trees and rainforests the Earth could suffocate and become a ruin and end up dying to start all over again with us extinct and new evolving creatures or physical beings to live here. Which we don't want because we want our present civilization to live on as humanity in a fresh environmental way.
You have the power and ability to make a difference to improve our Earth, even if it's just caring for one another and protecting flowers and plants to keep them alive and recycling daily or just giving kindness to people that are those you can expect in return. Just ask yourself 'what would life be like without flowers, nature of green, trees, animals, sunshine and goodness in humanity's mannerism and respect or even without humanity at all.' We all need it once in a while, and everyone surely seems to deserve it. All you've got to do in life, is start over again in a new day and remember from the memories you've learned from the past and seek present goals for the good and well being of others, and mostly yourself. If you can do this with a positive attitude and a courageous heart, then in a couple years from now you'll feel proud in how worthwhile you've made yourself and life to become! If you can live and give people hope and faith about true matters that mean very much to all of us for their future well being as it shows others to follow optimistic paths as they will follow, no man or woman would be unhappy to know that they do have support by another. By doing all this as a fortunate human being, you are thee Earth's hero; as your saving and healing your own living planet!
Yours, Jason Mills
Tuesday, 20th December 2011
Dear Jay!
I haven't been reporting about my daily life as much as I used to anymore since I sometimes wouldn't find it necessary to write about things unless their interesting or suitable enough to share. I guess I can tell you a couple of things, but nothing you haven't read about me before.
School has been usually boring that Lucy, Rose and I simply can't find much to do for fun but to stand near a radiator at lunch since the school is nearly always freezing in the Winter season, so we'd either be up against the radiator or standing near a window on the upper floor of the school building where we can chat and have conversations more privately and in peace without any interruptions of load voices from the busy corridors of students rushing by. I'll also be getting my Christmas holidays this Wednesday but I'm not really excited about all that if i'm being perfectly honest because it's not as though I'm stressed from classes since it bores me so much as there sometimes isn't much to do but things we already know.
Today our class watched a DVD and relaxed while the teacher of Maths bought us hot chocolates as a Christmas treat, so that was nice. Other than my life and school news, I've also political news to share which I researched on the Internet. It's mostly all about the end of the Iraq war and the U.S. troops return home to the United States. This is what I've found: "President Barack Obama welcomes U.S. troops home from Iraq as he marked an end to a war he once described as 'dumb' by declaring the conflict in Iraq a success and saying that the last of the U.S. troops will leave in the coming days with their 'heads held high'. The president told an audience of soldiers at Fort Bragg that the final pull out from Iraq after nearly nine years of war is a 'historic' moment and that the country they leave behind is an 'extraordinary achievement'. 'Early Sunday, as the sun ascended to the Winter sky, the very last American convoy made it's way down the main highway that connects Iraq and Kuwait. The military called it it's 'tactical road march.' A series of 110 heavily armored, hulking trucks and nine resident ambush protected vehicles carrying about 500 soldiers streamed slowly but steadily out of the combat zone. A few minutes before 8am, the metal gate behind the last MRAP closed with it came to an end a deadly and divisive war that lasted almost nine years, it's enormous cost calculated in blood and billions. Once, when hundreds of thousands of Americans were in Iraq, the main highway was better known as main supply Route Tempa and soldiers trekked north towards Baghdad and beyond, never knowing what danger lurked on their path. On this monumental day, the texas-based 3rd Brigade Special troops Battalton, 1st cavalry Divisions main concern was how to avoid a traffic jam on their final journey in Iraq. Staff Sgt. Daniel Gaumer, 37, was on this road in August 2003. It was his first time at war. He was frightened. There was not a lot of traffic at the time, he recalled. He remembered a lot of cheering by Iraqis, even though the situation was tense. 'It's pretty historic'', he said about the drive south, hoping he will not ever have to come back through this unforgiving terrain again. Once there was bases sprinkled in the desolate desert between Najirya and Basra, American soldiers hidden from view behind walls of giant mesh Hesco boys filled with dirt and sand to stave off incoming fire. On this day, the roads, the bases were in Iraq's hands, the sand in the boys returned to the earth. Once, almost nine years ago in March 2003, U.S. tanks and armored personnel carriers had thundered north, with the drive and determination needed to decapitate a dictator. On this day, heading south towards Khabari border crossing, the soldiers took stock of their sacrifice. In another war, there had been little joy or even emotion as final jet transport lifted Americans from Vietnamese soil. Sunday saw the end of the largest troop drawdown for the United States since Vietnam. These man and women who fought in Iraq may not feel they are leaving behind an unfinished war or returning home to a nation as deeply scarred as it was after years of Vietnam. But many crossed the border harbouring mixed feelings and doubt about the future of Iraq.
'The biggest thing about going home is just that it's home', Gauner said. 'It's civilization as I know it-the western world, not sand and dust and the occasional rain here and there.' A month ago, Adder, the last U.S. base before the five hour drive to the Kuwati border, housed 12,000 people. By Thursday, the day the United States formally ended it's mission in Iraq with a flag-casing ceremony in Baghdad, under 1,000 people remained there. The 3rd Brigade Special Troops Battalton, 1st cavalry Division officially transferred central of camp Adder to the Iraqis on Friday though it did not really change hands until the last American deported early Sunday morning. The United States will still remain a presence in Iraq; hundreds of nonmilitary personnel, including 1,700 diplomats, law enforcement officers, and economic, agricultural and other experts, according to the state Department. In addition, 5,000 security contractors will protect Americans and another 4,500 contractors will serve in other roles. The quiet U.S. exit, shrouded in secrecy until it occured, closed a war that was contentious from the start and cost the nation more then $800 billion. President Barack Obama, who had made a campayne promise to bring home American troops, reflected on a greater cost as Sunday's exit made good on his word. According to the defense department, 4,487 service members were killed in the war. More than 30,000 were wounded. In all, 1.5 million Americans served their nation at war. 'All of them,-our troops, Veterans, and their families-will always have the thanks of a grateful nation', Obama said in his weekly radio address Saturday. It's impossible to know with certainty of Iraqis who have died in Iraq since 2003. But the independent public database Iraq body count had compiled reports of more than 150,000 between the invasion and October 2010, with four out of five dead being civilians. And the question of how Iraq will fare in the months ahead, without U.S. troops, is also impossible to answer. Even before the last soldier had left, political crisis was erupting in Baghdad. The powerful political Blc Iraqiya said it was suspending it's participation in parliament, which would threaten Iraq's fragile power-sharing arrangement. Iraqiya accuses Iraqi Prime Minister Nuri Al-Maliki of amassing power. The withdrawal of U.S. troops stirred conflicting emotions as the streets of Baghdad. In the predominately Sunni neighbourhood of Adhamiya, where Saddam hussein made his final public appearance in 2003, a man said residents were afraid, tense and worried about Iran's influence. He refused to appear on camera or give his name because of what he said was the sensitive nature of the situation. In a shia neighbourhood on the otherside of the city, one man said he supported the toppling of Hussein's regime, but felt too much blood was shed afterward. "The U.S.A went through and they ruined this country (bringing) with them many troubles. And now they're going and... More trouble's coming", said the man, who asked to be called Abi Ali for security reasons. But for the last U.S. troops out, the message was clear. Col. Doug Crissiman, their commander, spend the past few weeks speaking to the soldiers in each of his companies. He told them he was proud of his troops and they should be proud of what they had accomplished. And, he wanted his soldiers to take care of themselves back home as much as they did in Iraq. In the months before the brigade deployed in February, it lost 13 soldiers to accidents, some because of driving under the influence of alcohol. At least one death was a suicide. "Quite frankly we lost more soldiers in peacetime in the nine or ten months before this brigade deployed due to accidents and risky behaviour... Then we lost here in combat", Crissman said. "We want every soldier that survived this combat deployment to survive redeployment and reintegration." Capt. Mark Askew, 28, said he was worried about the well-being of his soldiers, many of whom have done multiple tours of Iraq and felt the stress and sting the war was the loss, the grief, worth it? For Askew, it will all depend on how Iraq's future unfolds-whether democracy and human rights will take root, whether Iraq will be a steadfast U.S.A. ally. It will depend, he said, on how Iraq shapes it's own destiny.
So there you are, the research I've found on Google, but from the way it seems I can imagine the true experience that the civilians and soldiers from both Iraq and U.S. had was much more serious and life changing in a shocking way for them then from what I read by the research. So many lives we're spared and taken away and risked to create change or development or for protection on either countries. So many brave men and women we're willing enough to risk their own lives for their countrymen, but the sad part for me was having to visually imagine a person dying over the hate and greed of their political leaders from allowing this war to ever happen in the first place or for ever allowing their citizens to take such a risk in a battlefield. And the truth is... Everyone has a voice and an opinion and shall be humanely equal within their-self dignity, and no death or dictating arguments of one leader can take that away, because the righteousness is still in our hearts. I see that if we all come together as the oneness, and speak respectfully for all our nation's right then we are commonly more powerful and sensible in a way than fighting to sacrifice or to increase fear on our planet. Not only would speeches and ideas help to increase our present world of knowledge but sharing and doing things freely as groups to earn a living in helping the environment and ourselves to remain in a safer and a more positive surrounding would be best too. The things I see people crave upon in this world and wish to have are nothing but distractions and complications sine its the simple things that makes life worth living. I see that if people go in the same direction; in seeking a life experience or a dream that others wish for, I see that it won't satisfy you in accomplishing a reputation of fame or popularity since true respect in something you truly want and believe in is much more appealing and fulfilling. In the past, actually sometimes still I do fantasize about living a life of wealth and fame but as my self-knowledge progressed through this year I've learnt that to be successful on the inside for something you get self-respect for and for something that makes ourselves feel happy with, is far more important. All I can say now is that if we all as equal individuals become open minded enough to know how powerful and special we are and still can be if we forgive our inner sorrows and let the light in our hearts out in the open air to express and show our friendlier nature as it makes everyone realize that anyone can change and better themselves, if only they'd try and put the effort into really seeing the brighter sides of things. You might find all this too hard to believe, but if you just peacefully close your eyes and block out all the voices around you that might try proving you wrong, and to put the palm of your hand onto your chest, near your heart, you shall feel you're self's worth as it proves that everyone truly does have goodness, always in spirit and in their heart as they truly do deserve to live. I know that I'm not the only one in this one world that believes that everyone has goodness and can better the world by being better people, the only solution to make this happen is to repair what was damaged, which means coming to understand those who have come to surrender into the darkness of lost, but we can help those who want to be helped into good solutions by giving encouragement and helping them on their path of self-worth.
So yes, all this is far more better than fame and wealth. Helping the planet and treating everyone, including yourself, on the right path by following our inner knowledge to new ideas, and if we can succeed in impressing people with good ideas for the good of all then that opens up light pathways and leads the blind, the lost, the dark into the work and development with light workers. When we come to understand and succeed from finding our path and way in life, it's possible for other individuals to become more optimistic and find their ways too by our inspirational ways with friendliness and help. If this can happen then maybe it could encourage young people to avoid bad decisions, bad paths and even bad influences as there soon wont be any as there will be too many paths to choose from that no one would be lost. Overall this could all encourage people such as soldiers to stop destroying the environments of Earth by their guns and bombs, and maybe spend more time with working on peace and been with their families and loved ones.
Before I stop writing, I'd just like to mention that I hope all the soldiers from the U.S. and in Iraq keep safe and take good care of themselves in this Winter season and around Christmas time where everyone deserves to be happy and with their friends!
Yours, Jason Mills
Tuesday, 27th December 2011
Dearest Jay,
Over these past two years I've learnt so much about myself and about life too. I've learnt how to face difficult times with a smile. I've learnt what true happiness really is. I see now that happiness doesn't just come from what you give or receive but from having strength and courage to get through all the odds. Happiness also comes from inner care; in how you take care of your body and health and in also how you treat yourself and others around you, physically and emotionally. Happiness is a sweet, delightful feeling that we get inside from our soul or conscience as it tells us that we're doing the right thing and on the right path to true success. I've learnt so much about my inner being from all the emotional moments of my life. When I'm happy I'd feel I'm doing the right thing. When I'm hurt or sad I deserve to be left alone in peace. When I'm scared I'll have to find ways out of this darkened situation and find myself into the light again by making the right decisions. When I'm angry my heart is testing me in how courageous and strong I am by holding onto some source of hope in avoiding my negative emotions and performing my actions into quietness by not fighting the enemy as I know the enemy wants me to hate and go down to their foolish level, but I'll promise myself and the world that I will try to never become such a hater as hateful people want, but maybe it's best to treat myself right by being a kinder lover!
My conscience is clear; I've come to the conclusion that the inner existence is far more beautiful and everlasting than the human lives that our eternal souls tribe in a lifetime. I see inside myself that we all carry life energy and beauty from the goodness we spread and the kindness we give to another in a moments time of life. I realize now that this life is based on how we progress ourselves emotionally and momentarily as independent earthly beings while we're still alive to better our inner selves as we will leave again to begin new spirit journeys in seeking new realms and life's to live and share.
So, I really do want to live; I want to do everything. As each day goes by it takes me a step closer to my spirit's home in Divine. It takes us all a little closer to where we're so meant to be; whether it's finding love or even a home to feel peace and safe in.
Overall I think I've found my way in life and I definitely believe that I might just be capable of helping others find their paths when their lost too. Other than my deep feelings inner beings, I've had a nice Christmas this year.
Last Thursday I went into town with Nanny G and Granddad Robbie to buy all my friends and family gifts and presents for Christmas. I spent all my money until I had none left. Nanny was very surprised with how much I got for everyone. She believed I was being too nice but I loved doing it because I could just imagine everyone's delightful faces when they seen how thoughtful and understanding I was since I knew all their interests and hobbies. I also bought my both grandparents a pair of footwear since I appreciated their idea of going into town and shopping with me. On Christmas day I visited many family members and I received many wonderful gifts from them too. My mother bought me a cool tracksuit, my father bought me a couple of movies and they are ones I enjoy very much. My grandparents bought me very interesting books about classical endurances in a collection by Michael Morpuro. My friends got me many things too which I'm glad to have received, and I thanked them for it. I bought my mother an angel book by an Irish author, I got my grandmother Malone a pair of white gloves and a hat and a scarf for the cold season we're having here from Winter. I bought Lucy a collection of DVD's and an Art set with other drawing essentials for her great talent. I bought Emily and Elizabeth cosmetics. Overall, all my family and friends were greatly satisfied with all the nice surprises I gave them, but deep down I don't think any of those expensive presents could compare to the offerings of my friendship and love for them since my strong connection for them is the best given gift I could ever give in a lifetime. As time goes by, the day might come when my friends and I will go our own separate ways but as I go on, I'll remember all the good times I shared with my friends in my youth times. I'll remember all the times when my friends and me were together when I believed life was forever. But, if I really think of it, even if all of our lives change, we'll still be friends forever; in memory and in the heart of the young. Nothing can take away the wonderful memories we had. And I wouldn't regret any moment I had in life because it only makes me stronger and wise to know that we learn something new every day. Which I believe is the reason why I keep a diary, and will continue to treasure forever because as I've told you so many times, memories and longing feelings are things I'd never erase in my life because it's how I felt in a certain time and place. Sometimes I read over what I wrote in the past and I'd think 'I should have wrote that differently', but what I write is mostly my feelings on the matter which is what my inner voice and inner feelings have to say, and half the time it doesn't logically make sense but other times I believe I'm doing what's right.
But now that I've found wonderful friends (ones from school) my social life has changed a little. These friends I think of know who they are. My friends are coming an age of maturity understanding which means I can become more open with them and not worry whether they'd laugh or misunderstand me anymore as their starting to take my friendship more seriously. I see the reason why people have become so misunderstanding upon another; I believe it's because of the way everyone deals with things... With their opposites and wants which lead to greed and selfishness. If people could just share out the world equally and see that we're all on the one planet to accomplish something great, and if people could just see like I do that everyone's differences are their own qualities and power to leading themselves on the right track. And if people could find it in their hearts to seek that war and disagreements are far more a waste of time than the freedom and kindness we beautifully can give to a person or another. Isn't this much much easier than making matters worse by creating misery and problems that usually doesn't solve anything more than bring misery on innocent people?
I know some would agree and disagree, but that isn't the point I'm making here. I'm just trying to lighten the darkness so that people can find their ways in a more positive environment with a renewed planet of possibilities that can begin in the beginning of a new day. I understand that people have their reasons to misunderstanding me as I'm nothing but a boy with thoughts, and some may judge or think of me differently with their stereotype criticism but really I'm just a human being who just happens to believe that people can change, and maybe one day come to feel the bliss my heart and soul currently endures. No matter what happens, no one can ever defeat the love that most people have, and I guess no one can take away the hope and faith people have which I just happen to believe in, in a different way in words but in glorious feelings I'm sure I'm experiencing the same divine emotions within too.
You see, we're all different but beautifully equal in our upstanding right. Our countries, race, nationalities creed doesn't change neither does it compare to the fact that we're all freely humane with our own hearts to give. We all have the same physical bodies (well most of us who are lucky that have a head, arms and legs and God bless those who don't). We all have different features which shine or mark our beauty which is just wonderful to seek and find from a person. We hold or carry a quality that is always something unique or a talent that deserves to be respected and seen as special for it's outstanding or ridiculous humor or act that is not always perfect but possibly funny and entertaining for its imperfection; what I mean is not being too serious but as if to be a wild character.
It's actually funny in how easy the world can be improved because it's just a matter of knowing what's to be done and a habit of doing things differently which will lead people to following that new world of civilization by good habits and good teachings of freedom, spirit, love and equality. If young people can be taught these things and start to believe in them mannerably; I'm sure that they'd grow up to be good, happy human beings with a positive sense of knowledge with great tolerance of acceptance. Its understandable for those who hate and rebel against accepting certain groups of people when as children we we're taught a different history of our culture when countries had their ways of power and ways of surrender, but I'm not writing about gaining power or losing something; I'm talking about change and coming to understand all situations; a way to move forward and show our younger ones a new way of history so that people will see differences and another in a complete different way. All it takes is opening up your heart and having the courage to see what's beneath the surface, what' beyond the pathway, and what's behind what we appear; meaning seeing people for who they are and learning from them as they should from you, as things on Earth are definitely more then what it appears to be!
Yours, Jason Mills