Promises and Commitments...Simply Careless!

I Bribed my son to look for a lost item, i said i would give him sumthing special,

i just realised i had nothing to give once he found it for me! oops! i had run out of chocolate bars, no petty toys in the hidden junk...no! what bout that undecided gifting articles? he was blinking at me all this while with anticipation thinking i will come up with something really *Special*

i thaught of giving him a BIG KISS! instead, he's telling me "MOM u give me this gift everyday and that to too many times, Where is my Special Gift?" at this reply i was thinking just how silly and cute this situation may sound for me but in his eyes i've just cheated him! i've fooled my little Angel...The guilt was killing me!,He goes to his dad and complains with a little face, "Dad!! mom promised to give me sumthing special once i find her lost thing but she is not giving me anything now" on this My husband takes a chance to sort out his "Expired Issues"  He replies to Him " Your mum is always making fake promises, she even broke her promise to make Aloo parathas last friday for me" on this remark i just start recollecting more promises that i had made with other people...in my mind my mum pops up nodding her head sideways saying" You havent brought that spices i had told u to get from that herbal store yet" My father in law comes next in a think-cloud saying" Suhair u forgot to soak the ayurvedic powder again!" leave aside others issues i have been quiet careless with myself too, last months diet and exercise regime has gone down the drain...i have sumhow succumbed to go back to the same old me that i was...wasnt that promise the most important one for myself?

As much as i would consider my self Responsible and Caring i come across this hard reality that i am not! but the bright side is every time this things happen i just realize how much everyone actually depend on me! its a feeling of being somebody for everybody.

Careless but Faithful SUHAIR.