Amnesiac

[Justice Thomas]

The coma had lasted for twenty-five years
Drifting away in a dreamless land,
The silence of a void where nothing exist
A clarity I had yet to understand.
Breathing through cardiac tubing
When the fluid pour through I can eat,
Loved ones enter and mourn unnoticed
And heart monitors whisper in sequence...beep.
I've forgotten who I was before my eyes shut for what seemed like forever
Before the waves came crashing down,
And into an ocean of quiet remission
Where space was empty, in non-existent sound.
Breathing in nothingness, complete content
The outer pain and anguish a mere memory,
Walking through a singing oblivion
In a calming beauty where even blind can see.
I can sense their cries by my bedside
And the prayers f death from enemies away,
While deep inside my soul wanders
And covets lies of a brand new day.
They discuss my state of being after this
Or if I will even wake up at all,
Studying the gray ashes of faded memories
Seasons of a man from summer to fall.
And underneath the tree of sanity
The delusional clouds of strife,
The static on the reality show of twenty-five years
And the constant re-run that is my life.
So as I re-live the past in limbo
The outer world passes me by,
A comatose victim in night shade dreams
Too far gone to leak a cry.
The silence so cold and foreboding
As I wish to feel loved one's gentle hug,
To wake up only once, or never again
Or hope they soon pull the plug.